James' third confession

Forgive me Pancreator, for I have sinned. It has been 24 hours since my last confession.

It has been a very difficult day for me, Pancreator, and I give you my thanks for allowing me to survive.

Since my last confession I have brought shame on my teachers. I have ignored their teaching, acted rashly, endangered the lives of those I'm sworn to protect, threatened innocents and endangered my own life. I would like to say I had many good reasons but I acted from fear in every case. I have learned the lesson, and will get back on track.

As you know, I questioned Teddy on his intentions. He lied and gave me half truths. I continue to be uncertain about his intention. Swapping, usually every hour, between thinking he is an enemy, to thinking him a friend. The knowledge that he works for the Charioteer Secret Service does not change this. Sava is the target of the Jakovians, but Teddy is the keystone to the puzzle. I pray that you guide me to be aware of his intentions.

I have felt anger and frustration towards Sava. He took me aside and gave me a long rambling monologue to ask if I can still work with Teddy. As insulting as that was, it is clearly due to Sava's lack of external awareness. Thankyou for giving me this lesson in humility.

I am envious about Shui Lin's obvious family rank. I don't know why she doesn't express this side of herself more.

I will strive henceforth to live up to your expectation.

Finally, bless Baron Mikhail Kruschev Decados and keep him safe. He has shown us hospitality far beyond what I would expect from anyone. And far beyond expectations given our ongoing peril.